Dreams

I've been traveling a bunch lately... sleeping in different beds. In the last two weeks I've been in 5 different beds in 5 different places and the one consistent thing is that I have been having some rather vivid dreams. For the most part they have been about or including two guys in my life. And its been interesting how the dreams have been playing out and when and where these guys come into play.  It's almost like they switch off every night. The interesting thing about them being in my dreams is that I wake up every morning knowing they were there and what happened. Which is not always a "normal" thing for me. So, the question is: What are these dreams trying to tell me? One of the guys I LOVE and the other I am just getting to know. There are two different types of connections between the two and yet I am not really sure that I am going to end up with either one of them. Dating sure is hard. Sometimes I think I would be better off single. But then I know I want a loving husband and a family, right? Don't I know that? Sometimes I wonder what I really know... And sometimes I think that I am just plain not ready for the love of my life. Maybe I need more time to figure out how to make it in the world with out a man before I can fully let one in to take up my time. Because I do get lazy when I got a man in my bed... I mean why get up when everything you want is right there?  In the end though, I do want to find that love that will make the days a little less heavy and good times that much more fun. Whether or not that will happen sooner than later doesn't really matter, I guess what matters is that it happens with the right person. <3